The End

i enjoy your company, and we do have many things in common. but i should also tell you that at just about the time i met you, i met someone else with whom i think i will wind up exploring the possibility of a relationship.

I give up, people. I give...fucking...up.

The Little Things

I've struck up a correspondence with a fellow from Alt who seems to have a bit of class, and maturity, and intuition. This one line has me wondering even more about him and I'm looking forward to our meeting.

He said, in reference to our future meeting, "...if you have a place you like, let me know. if not, i'm happy to take the lead and pick out a place for us."

Now, it seems to me that this is the perfect thing for a REAL Dom to say! To take the lead, to pick out a place for us, to let me know where it is and when I should be there (within our agreed time frame). I cannot tell you how rare this is, and I think that's why I'm so struck by it! So many times I have made plans to meet someone who professes to be a Dominant and yet I have to make all the arrangements. I pick out the place and the time and how to get there and whatever, whatever. It always seems just wrong! And now I know why. Because it is!

I am intrigued and not a little bit tickled by this approach and am very much looking forward to meeting this man.

It reminds me, once again, what I am looking for. A true gentleman.

New Years Resolution

Let me begin by saying I don't believe in New Years Resolutions. I have always found them to be set ups for disappointment and failure. Instead, I prefer goals for the year.

This year I have one main goal - I want to be more daring. I want to do things I've never done before. I want to push myself to really find my limits or go beyond them because I rarely do that. I'm very much a person that stays in the comfort zone (so to speak). I want to challenge that approach. I'm not talking just sexually (although, of course, I am talking sexually). I want to push myself creatively and socially, as well. This is a big city with so much to do and I simply don't do enough of it.

I also think that if I push my limits sexually it will naturally expand into the rest of my life. And, maybe, vice versa. If I push myself creatively, maybe it will expand my sexual life. That seems to make sense. And when I talk about my sexual limits I am, generally, talking about pain. I am absolutely certain that I have not even come close to my pain limit. I've simply never found anyone who was either willing to take me there or who hung around long enough to go the distance. I'm hoping that that has changed. And, even if he is not that person, then I want to push myself to find that person. In 2009 I held back. I lost hope and gained weight (those two things seem to go hand in hand for me). I am committed (remember this later, Eve) to making 2010 different and not losing sight of my goal and my potential. As a creative individual and as a submissive.

Happy New Decade!