Saturday, November 24, 2007

Gone, But Not Forgotten

This blog has taken a decided turn towards the non-sexual, of late. Well, mostly. Maybe I should qualify that and say that it's turned away from being graphically sexual. And, turned away sounds like I'm shunning it. I'm not. What am I trying to say?

I miss writing about sex. I miss writing the nasty, smut filled, hot and moist prose that were the impetus for this blog. I miss writing about it, I miss thinking about it, I miss having it, I miss being charged by it. When I began this blog I was obsessed. I was a woman on a mission (or a rampage). I wanted sex, all the time, with almost anyone. Well, I'm pickier than that. But, at the time, not so much. I had a constant hum in my cunt. A continuous buzz and I was always wet. I could hardly focus on day-to-day activities and tried to arrange my day-to-day activities to be about sex. It was all I could do not to masturbate numerous times throughout the day. Sometimes, I would.

And the sex I wanted was not run-of-the-mill. I wanted hard, aggressive, painful sex. I wanted to be taken. Spanked, exposed, inspected, and hurt.

It's what I still want, really. I could never tolerate being "owned", but I want someone who will use me. Regularly. Use me and love me.

So, even though I'm not writing much these days about it, and even though I'm not really thinking about it much, either (depression has a way of nullifying sex drive), it's there. I haven't become vanilla (although, I admit, if I fell in love with someone and he couldn't go to these places, I would let it go).

I guess there's hope (whaddaya know). Even just briefly writing this for you now stirs something in me. A little bit.

7 comments:

wet & shy said...

mmmmmmmm, baby
oh yeah
"a little bit" is how it starts ;)
[i take it that girls are not Quite Your Thing, so i hope you'll accept a very friendly, comradely but deeply appreciative cyber-pat on the ass]
w/s

HSWLOVER said...

Eve, I do believe there is hope. You do deserve to be taken, repeatedly, hard, sometimes painfully, and then loved.

E

Eve in Chains said...


"i take it that girls are not Quite Your Thing"

That, my dear w/s, is where you are wrong. I very much enjoy being with girls, it's just not the focus right now in my life. I spent many years with only women. Now, it's cock I want. But, not only.

And, thanks E, for the hope.

Eve

Rupert said...

Keeping my fingers crossed that you can find that person to be all of the above for you, Eve!!!

wet & shy said...

ok, now you're just trying to make me blush ;)
and squirm ;p
[it's working, by the way!]
w/s

-MAXX- said...

"And the sex I wanted was not run-of-the-mill. I wanted hard, aggressive, painful sex. I wanted to be taken. Spanked, exposed, inspected, and hurt.

It's what I still want, really. I could never tolerate being "owned", but I want someone who will use me. Regularly. Use me and love me."

Eve,
It's comments like that, which confirm that you are a girl after my very heart ;-)

-MAXX-

Eve in Chains said...

Thanks, Maxx. I aim to please. hehe

Eve